What Is the Choice That Has Kept You Alive?

This is a vote against the void: the yawning pit of utter nihilism, the haunting pull toward self-sabotage and passive self-destruction. This is a vote against despair and the excruciating comfort of submerging in terror, uncertainty, grief and outrage at the headlines of the day; against allowing hope to be swept away in the tsunami of corruption, sadism, and malevolent destruction of the People and the Planet.

This is a vote for the possibility of facing, recognizing, and consciously deflecting the force(s) that would destroy us, until we can move forward, toward the Light. Not once, but again and again, because the predator never stops following, inwardly or outwardly.

Is it Divine protection – the inner voice of our Higher Self – the soul’s predilection for healing – the wise animal drive for survival – who knows? We make the choice for Life against the many faces of the destroyer: addiction, illness, abuse, oppression, aggression, genocide, and the many forms of silencing, inwardly and outwardly. Whether in the stillness of our anguished minds or our failing bodies or an abusive household, or in the face of deadly outward force, we say Enough, and do what is needed to choose life..

For the past months I have been feeling a growing call to gather survivors’ stories, and share them with readers who are also locked in that struggle as an affirmation: You/I/We are not alone. The predatory force has many faces; so does the Light. We all need the challenge, affirmation and support of survivors’ stories.

I have offered a few of my stories here in past posts (The Divinity of the Speck, Taking Refuge, Phoenix Rising) and I invite you to join me in sharing your stories…I am creating a new site to host them: http://www.survivorshaven.com (Facebook group https://www.facebook.com/groups/SurvivorsHaven/)

  • Facing and overcoming addiction
  • Surviving suicide – your own attempt or another’s
  • Overcoming terminal illness
  • Choosing to walk away from abuse
  • Holding your voice and power in the face of silencing
  • Standing in the face of deadly force in peaceful protests
  • Or…….(your story here)

The focus here is on a turning point – the first, second, umpteenth moment of choosing life, hope, and purpose. This doesn’t mean that your life is perfect or that you’ve never again stood curling your toes on the drop edge of yonder. The Destroyer returns to us all again and again – as the ancient eventide chant reminds us, “our adversary stalketh about like a roaring lion, seeking whom he may devour” – and it is up to us to resist, steadfastly.

I invite you, if you share your story, to explore a core question: what previously-undiscovered value have you found in Life – your own life, the life of the world, the lives of beloveds – that supports you when the destroyer returns?

Your unique answer – not a reflexive happy-happy-perky-positive-pod-person answer of “never a negative thought” or somesuch – arises out of your bones and blood and guts, your DNA, the wisdom of your ancestors, your Divine connection.

And by each of us sharing our journey, our hard-won answers, we sustain ourselves and one another.

There are several ways of sharing your answer:

  • As a guest post, written by you
  • As an interview, whether by video, by audio, or by printed transcript
  • Through an interview and article, written by me

My goal is to gather these stories in a series of podcasts and/or a published compilation. If you would like to share your story, please contact me at phila@survivorshaven.com







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